Finding myself

These few weeks, I felt a whole spectrum of emotions, where they were skewed more towards the side of negative and dark emotions. I feel like it’s the end of the world, but I am young and there is a whole world of possibilities. It’s whether I choose to see them or not. As there are two sides to every coin, there is always a silver lining to every cloud. If only I can convinced myself of that.

I’ve been sleeping on the sofa for the past few weeks. I love my room but I feel lonely surrounded by only my thoughts sleeping there. Sometimes, my thoughts follow me into the dream world and haunt me causing me to wake up with a start. It’s easier to fall asleep again in the living room somehow. I wonder when I would stop feeling this way and go back to my room to sleep.

I did a crazy thing, according to my own standards. Sometimes, we just have to take a leap of faith into the unknown. It might or might not turn out alright, but its ok, at least we tried. There are no what-ifs to be asked. And I am happy this way.