4am in the morning

Saw a missed call.

So I messaged back,

And added that I was very depressed.

I just needed to tell someone,

And saying it out made my conscious realise that I really am at my wits end.

And I thought to myself,

Oh, I am in deep despair.

And I sat there,

Savouring even every wave of fresh despair that washed over me.

And when the realization hit my subconscious that I am indeed in very big trouble,

I started to cry a little.

Then I sat there somemore,

Feeling how it is like to cry.

Relieved that I am able to feel something afterall,

For I fear that I don’t know how to feel anymore.

And I felt slightly better,

Decided to plod on, slowly but surely.

Thankfully, I had a nice prof who helped me even though it was 45 minutes before the lecture. I apologized to him for being so last minute and thanked him for his help. I don’t mind presenting tutorial questions in lecture. But to present something that u don’t know how to do and don’t understand is a rather horrible situation to be in.

Thanks to everyone who helped me. =)