I dream whenever I sleep, during the night and even a short nap. I don't dream only one dream but an average of 2 dreams per night. I wonder why I dream so much. It makes me rather tired the next morning as my physical self does go though all the emotions when I dream, actually crying when I cry in a dream and so on. I actually use my brain to think too when I dream even though the brain is suppose to be inactive when I sleep. Thankfully, these few months, I realised that my dreams have gone from disturbed dreams to sometimes weird but relatively peaceful and happier dreams.

I dreamed one of my most normal dreams last night. I dreamt that I was midway though a semester in NUS when a letter came saying that I got a scholarship to go to the US which I supposed applied for in March. Haha... the condition was that I had to be bonded to an adverstising firm when I came back from further studies. I didn't exactly make me feel happy. It set me thinking really hard in the dream, is that what I really want? To go overseas to study and come back to work in an advertising firm in a 9-5 job? Suddenly, at that point of time in my dream, I suddenly missed everything in nus, being so rushed and having no time to study and even my hall which I still think that most of the people here are nuts. It was suddenly clearer to me that I really wanted to be a teacher, or at the very least not a desk job which is 9-5. Somehow, I feel that this dream is trying to tell me something, to cherish things i have now and not regret its loss only when its gone. Its hard to do so because very often, we only realise how much we treasure something when its gone. And in the real world unlike dreams where what is gone will come back, once its gone, its gone forever. So I will start cherishing everything I have now.... including the hall I am staying in because in my subconcious in my dream... I suddenly missed this hall alot, missed my neighbours and even the people who are nuts! I just wish that they won't blast loud music from morning to night until 2am. *Scowls*. Haha...

How do you behave when you are irritated with a maths question or something cos you can't seem to understand it? I give myself a 10 mins break and go to sleep and hope by some miracle when I wake up, I will understand it. I just heard someone bang the table, give a roar like a tiger, howl like a wolf, and said a very long f**k before giving a sigh and I suppose going back to work. Somehow, it made me smiled, not for the situation that that person living below me is in, but for some reason even unknown to me.

And sometimes, I feel that I can pick up my shoes and run again.