My prelims are coming to an end.... ugh!!! I think my math has just gone from my best subject to my worst subject...
Sigh.. this prelims left a very deep impression on me... or should I say that it left a very large scar and taught me a lesson that I will never ever forget. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that I would actually FORGET to go for my chem paper. Last time... I thought that people who were late for exams were really big idiots who deserved to fail their paper... what more about people who actually forget to go for their exams. I really think I am very lucky that Mr Foo gave me the exact time people had to do their chem exam... even though I think I am gonna fail that paper. I was so shocked during the whole paper that during the paper... all I could think of is WHY.... how could I FORGET to go for a paper. I never hated myself so much in my whole life. After the paper which I still don't know up to now how I went through it... I walked around school... feeling so dazed and lost... when to the toilet... looked at myself and wonder HOW I could forget such an important thing. Came home... could only stare the wall... wonder yet still HOW could I be so blur. I guess no one will ever understand... when I tell people bout this... they tell me... never mind... at least they gave u the exact time... though what else can I expect them to tell me... tell me that they think I actually should be banned from the paper? How could I do such a thing to myself... and this is not the first time... there were many times... including missing a mock ballet exam which I had TOTALLY had no idea about.
When I think about it... I still feel so hurt... so hurt by what I have done to myself. I am really so scared... that something like that will happen again... when the next time it happens... it will be even worse... cos I will no longer be in school anymore and no one will give me a second chance like how Mr Foo gave me a second chance.
A reminder to myself... YOU better not do something like that again... you better stop being so blur and be more alert to your surroundings... or else... one day you will hurt yourself so badly through your own fault that you will never be able to forgive yourself.
Sigh.. this prelims left a very deep impression on me... or should I say that it left a very large scar and taught me a lesson that I will never ever forget. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that I would actually FORGET to go for my chem paper. Last time... I thought that people who were late for exams were really big idiots who deserved to fail their paper... what more about people who actually forget to go for their exams. I really think I am very lucky that Mr Foo gave me the exact time people had to do their chem exam... even though I think I am gonna fail that paper. I was so shocked during the whole paper that during the paper... all I could think of is WHY.... how could I FORGET to go for a paper. I never hated myself so much in my whole life. After the paper which I still don't know up to now how I went through it... I walked around school... feeling so dazed and lost... when to the toilet... looked at myself and wonder HOW I could forget such an important thing. Came home... could only stare the wall... wonder yet still HOW could I be so blur. I guess no one will ever understand... when I tell people bout this... they tell me... never mind... at least they gave u the exact time... though what else can I expect them to tell me... tell me that they think I actually should be banned from the paper? How could I do such a thing to myself... and this is not the first time... there were many times... including missing a mock ballet exam which I had TOTALLY had no idea about.
When I think about it... I still feel so hurt... so hurt by what I have done to myself. I am really so scared... that something like that will happen again... when the next time it happens... it will be even worse... cos I will no longer be in school anymore and no one will give me a second chance like how Mr Foo gave me a second chance.
A reminder to myself... YOU better not do something like that again... you better stop being so blur and be more alert to your surroundings... or else... one day you will hurt yourself so badly through your own fault that you will never be able to forgive yourself.
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