hmmm.... was having a conversation with Michelle... after that... thought bout quite a lot of things. Sometimes... i wonder what is my real character. I am very sure that its not the old, boring, quiet and super- uninteresting person that I protray myself to be in my current class. In fact... I feel super sian to be like that... not that my class is horrible... its very nice with very nice people in it. Anyway... her friend proves someone's theory right that we are crazed. I guess thats what I am... I am crazed so as to remain mentally stable.

Then we talked bout jobs. I don't understand it. Do I not look like a teacher? So many people doubt my teaching ability until I am losing faith in my 'teaching ability' myself... especially my parents who are teachers themselves... but I guess they just want the best for me as they don't think that teaching has very good career prospects. They even tell me... teaching cannot earn a lot of money. Well... I admit that I am a highly un-ambitious person. I really don't care about career prospects or money. I care most about how interesting the job is. Most importantly... I don't want to slog hard all my life... then I might as well not have lived in this world at all. Don't know why... ever since young... my ambition has never ever changed... though there are two ambitions that I rank above teaching which I can never acheive. The first one is to be a fairy who goes around the world healing all plants and animals.... the second one is to be a jedi. Seriously...up to now... I really still want to be those 2 ambitions.

Well... I bet this post does not make much sense... oh well... I was never good with words anyway.