Today... I had a mixture of feelings again... However... they were both very extreme. I felt so estatic until I felt like dancing around the room and felt so sad that I felt like I was sinking into an abyss. However.... the happy part is because of something logical. The sad part is because of something that is so illogical, so small a problem that it can only be measured in nanograms.

I have experienced the day to day sadness... but have not been so very sad for a long time... till I have forgotton how it is to be so sad. I hope I will never be so sad for such a minute reason again. IWhat I am irritated is that I cannot control my emotions... sigh... so I think I look crazy when I am very happy for no reason and thus people give me weird looks. But what is not fine is that when I am sad... that is even harder to control... I am sorry if I gave u the impression that I was chasing u away. I did not even think of that until u said that... I was even shocked that u said that because I never even say it or write it down in words, I just didn't want to embarrass myself. Besides... I will never chase u away.