Today.... I am happy and sad. Its weird to be feeling both emotions at the same time. Today was PDP exhibition day. I guess chamber's recruitment drive was a success, a great success. Its quite confirmed that we will be able to go for SYF.... not only be able to go... but with the quality to go. I am very touched by what Emily, our senior actually did for chamber. She actually came back to help in the pdp exhibition and was even there during the audition for the people who tried to appeal through chamber. She said that she would be there until our batch lives. You know.... its a very comforting thought to have someone to support us all.
However... I am sad as this means that I have to leave CO. I know I have been complaining about CO... but recently... I have grewn to love it... since I could actually make music with the bass. It was a nice change not to be the melody line... it was a even greater comfort to know that since u are virtually unheard... you could make as many mistakes as you can. It was nice to learn another instrument and to be thrown into a totally cheena environment for a change. Why do I have to leave CO? Because we have to go through intensive practise for chamber's SYF as we have not even selected the pieces yet and I can confirmed that schools like Vj already have. I also want to do them a favour as they have already too many bass these year. 7 basses! ( Michelle... we are not jinxed... we brought luck to the bass community. Haha.) Because though I like CO... I have always and will always put chamber as my first piority no matter how boring people think the music is. Because I know I cannot cope with CO and CO practise times clash with chamber.
My only regret how is how much I hated CO last time and instead of trying to enjoy my short stay there.... complained about it so much. This is one fault of mine. I never treasure things until they are taken away from me... only then... I know how precious that thing is to me.
But I am glad... glad for chamber's future... Glad that chamber will have a future... that it would not be gone in my time.... or else I will feel like its my fault for my whole life. I am glad... glad that since chamber is not going to break up.... guitar will not have a chance to take our room. (not that I have any thing against guitar.) Its just that I have a emotional bond to the room. It has acted as a refuge time and time again for me. It was a safe alternative to go when my friends and I pon contact time and the teachers are hunting down for people who pon contact time. It was where Michelle, Shauna and me mourned over chamber so many times last year and contemplated about joining CO. It is where you can find peace and quiet and feel so safe there.
But now.... my sadness outweighs my happiness.... because I know that chamber will be there for me... that there are many more practises to come... which is not the case for CO. Well.... I should be grateful that I joined CO for a short period... though I remembered how much I protested against the idea when Michelle ask us want to join... cos I felt I was doing a dis-favour to chamber. But I am glad I did in the end.
However... I am sad as this means that I have to leave CO. I know I have been complaining about CO... but recently... I have grewn to love it... since I could actually make music with the bass. It was a nice change not to be the melody line... it was a even greater comfort to know that since u are virtually unheard... you could make as many mistakes as you can. It was nice to learn another instrument and to be thrown into a totally cheena environment for a change. Why do I have to leave CO? Because we have to go through intensive practise for chamber's SYF as we have not even selected the pieces yet and I can confirmed that schools like Vj already have. I also want to do them a favour as they have already too many bass these year. 7 basses! ( Michelle... we are not jinxed... we brought luck to the bass community. Haha.) Because though I like CO... I have always and will always put chamber as my first piority no matter how boring people think the music is. Because I know I cannot cope with CO and CO practise times clash with chamber.
My only regret how is how much I hated CO last time and instead of trying to enjoy my short stay there.... complained about it so much. This is one fault of mine. I never treasure things until they are taken away from me... only then... I know how precious that thing is to me.
But I am glad... glad for chamber's future... Glad that chamber will have a future... that it would not be gone in my time.... or else I will feel like its my fault for my whole life. I am glad... glad that since chamber is not going to break up.... guitar will not have a chance to take our room. (not that I have any thing against guitar.) Its just that I have a emotional bond to the room. It has acted as a refuge time and time again for me. It was a safe alternative to go when my friends and I pon contact time and the teachers are hunting down for people who pon contact time. It was where Michelle, Shauna and me mourned over chamber so many times last year and contemplated about joining CO. It is where you can find peace and quiet and feel so safe there.
But now.... my sadness outweighs my happiness.... because I know that chamber will be there for me... that there are many more practises to come... which is not the case for CO. Well.... I should be grateful that I joined CO for a short period... though I remembered how much I protested against the idea when Michelle ask us want to join... cos I felt I was doing a dis-favour to chamber. But I am glad I did in the end.
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