My maid left today. Don't really know what to feel... just know that I feel very horrible. I wish I treasured her more when she was here... not getting irritated with her when she arranged my room. I know what is the thing that I dread most in life now... saying goodbye... knowing that you never see a person ever again. So much to say... yet don't know what to say at the airport. I don't think that I will ever want to go to the airport to say goodbye to someone.

I guess I should be happy for her. Most probably going back to Phillippines to get married.

Sigh... what a horrible day.