Violin exam is over... Dunno whether to be happy or sad. Basically, I messed up the parts I thought I won't mess up and didn't mess up the parts I thought I would mess up. Mixed feelings... U know, I wouldn't mind getting 100/150 which is just pass for a music exam.
I realised I am a very weird person.. I cannot put my finger to why I am weird... yeah but I am weird and when u are reading this, u feel that I am weird and when I write this, I feel I am even weirder.
I am confused... about the CIP trip... I really really want to go, but I have no time... if I go... I will be out of town for 6 weeks... My goodness... So, if I get chosen to go for the cip trip. Good... If I don't, even better then i don't even need to thinkl about whether I should go... But this is the one thing that i really really want to do. But if I go... then I am only have one week of rest cause the other one week left of the holidays go to PW and Chinese exam. But why do i want to go, there is only cold water, I can only bathe once in 2 days. Got no tv, no internet and air-con. Most probably have to shit in the ditch. Oh well.. I shall not think about this anymore... There be time... But I did enjoy the interview. =p
Now... Time to worry about promos... I am very worried... I really don't know anything.
PW... surprisingly, its not so stressful as before... Maybe I will change my tone when it comes to preparing for oral presentation.
Sometimes I wonder... do I know who I am... Ok... basically... I know that I am blur. I also know that I can remember things very well that people say. Haha... How I wish I can do the same for my studies. When I am angry, unhappy or any other negative emotions, I will cry. I set my own goals in life, not to compete with other people but within my own abilities and for personal sastifaction. When met with a problem, I will not rest until I find a solution which I always usually find. Sometimes, I want to tell people things, but I know it will offend them, thus I have to keep it to myself. I sense that sometimes, people are afraid to tell me bad things about me like my violin teacher as they think it is for my own benefit but I really want her to tell me so I can improve myself. Sigh... sometimes, there is really no freedom of speech. This world is confusing... Why can't everyone speak the truth? It is really hard to guess what other people are thinking.
Hmmm.... those seemed like very dark thoughts... Happier things about me??? Not really sure... I am usually quite happy except for sometimes. Usually, I feel pretty peaceful until stupid Michelle comes up behind me and scares me. The louder i scream, it means the more at peace I feel... Not that people should judge how I feel by coming up behind me and scaring me.
Sigh... i am not in the right frame of mind... Too many things to do, too little time to do, I miss my afternoon naps.
I realised I am a very weird person.. I cannot put my finger to why I am weird... yeah but I am weird and when u are reading this, u feel that I am weird and when I write this, I feel I am even weirder.
I am confused... about the CIP trip... I really really want to go, but I have no time... if I go... I will be out of town for 6 weeks... My goodness... So, if I get chosen to go for the cip trip. Good... If I don't, even better then i don't even need to thinkl about whether I should go... But this is the one thing that i really really want to do. But if I go... then I am only have one week of rest cause the other one week left of the holidays go to PW and Chinese exam. But why do i want to go, there is only cold water, I can only bathe once in 2 days. Got no tv, no internet and air-con. Most probably have to shit in the ditch. Oh well.. I shall not think about this anymore... There be time... But I did enjoy the interview. =p
Now... Time to worry about promos... I am very worried... I really don't know anything.
PW... surprisingly, its not so stressful as before... Maybe I will change my tone when it comes to preparing for oral presentation.
Sometimes I wonder... do I know who I am... Ok... basically... I know that I am blur. I also know that I can remember things very well that people say. Haha... How I wish I can do the same for my studies. When I am angry, unhappy or any other negative emotions, I will cry. I set my own goals in life, not to compete with other people but within my own abilities and for personal sastifaction. When met with a problem, I will not rest until I find a solution which I always usually find. Sometimes, I want to tell people things, but I know it will offend them, thus I have to keep it to myself. I sense that sometimes, people are afraid to tell me bad things about me like my violin teacher as they think it is for my own benefit but I really want her to tell me so I can improve myself. Sigh... sometimes, there is really no freedom of speech. This world is confusing... Why can't everyone speak the truth? It is really hard to guess what other people are thinking.
Hmmm.... those seemed like very dark thoughts... Happier things about me??? Not really sure... I am usually quite happy except for sometimes. Usually, I feel pretty peaceful until stupid Michelle comes up behind me and scares me. The louder i scream, it means the more at peace I feel... Not that people should judge how I feel by coming up behind me and scaring me.
Sigh... i am not in the right frame of mind... Too many things to do, too little time to do, I miss my afternoon naps.
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