I came back from Malaysia a few days ago.

When i met my cousins, we look at each other and asked whether we should call each other like how we used to call each other when we were younger. I used to call this cousin who is younger than me by one year 'didi' which means small brother in chinese. I even thought that was his name as everyone called him that. And all my cousings, older or younger call me 'min min'. However, he has now grown very much taller than me and it sure feels weird to keep calling him didi. But we decided to call each other what we used to call each other when we were younger because got 'tong nian de gan jue' as he put it.

I saw my grandmother this chinese new year. It has been a long time since I saw her. The last time I saw her was at the old folks home 1.5 years ago. We did not really put her there, somehow, she decided to stay there herself. That time, I remember crying when I saw her in the old folks home, then my whole family started to cry. I don't know what happened in the end, but in the end, my eldest aunt decided to look after her. From then till now, I didn't dare to ask my father, how is my grandmother though I really wanted to know, because I know I would start crying again. I am glad we went back this chinese new year and I got to see her again.