U know, there was this show called idol. I watched it sometimes… but didn’t recognise a classmate who my friend told me got in and actually manage to reach top 5. Recently, she was on the cover story of the magazine ‘Maxim’. I actually went to buy the magazine to scrutinise her pictures to see whether I can find any resemblance to the sec 4 her. My ‘curiosity’ cost me $6. Damn bloody expensive magazine. (Sorry for the vulgarities) I was pretty embarrassed when I realised that the magazine only seemed to contain pictures of half naked woman. Doesn’t help that on top of the magazine… it was written ‘Home of the sexiest woman’ or something.

I barely talked to her in sec school… to tell the truth… she frightened me… haha… seemed to be eternally upset over something. But when I think of her… I feel guilty. Cos she is related to my deepest darkest secret in sec school… or as dark or deep a secret a sec 4 girl can have. Haha… I have this tendency of leaving things lying around if they don’t happened to be attached to me physically. So I always make it a point to stuff everything into my bag. However… one day… I just could not stuff my biology textbook into my bag as there was simply no more space. So… I carried it around and yeah… it got lost. Till to this day.. I have no idea where I put it. I was frantic… as prelims were coming. Went to popular, went to mph, went to times… biology textbooks all sold out as it was near to the end of the year. How??? Didn’t dare to tell anyone especially my parents as they would kill me. One day… while searching the class cupboard for it… I found another biology textbook belonging to her.. I think she just threw it in there after dropping biology. I took it without telling her… well… I did tell her… but I only told her in my mind… hopping that she would not find out. I was thankful for the textbook but felt very guilty cos I felt like I was stealing her textbook which actually come to think of it.. I was… Sigh…. Anyway… am very thankful to her for ‘lending’ me her biology textbook and helping me to score a grade for biology that I was so totally amazed by.

Six dollars later… I still cannot find any resemblance to the sec 4 her I knew.