Mixed feelings.... went for CO concert today.... really don't know what to feel. All kind of emotions tugging me in different directions.

Part of me wished I was up there playing with them... though I can only play 2 songs. It really feels very very weird to hear them playing pieces I have heard so many times... and played before too.

The concert was great.... though I felt that it was too short. I could have sat there a whole eternity listening to them play.

Bought Michelle a white rose... her favourite colour. She glared at someone when someone presented her with a soft toy... but its quite cute. Bought the double bassists a yellow flower... is it called a daisy? I don't know... I really wanted to buy them sunflowers... but one of them said they were tired of people giving them sunflowers and since Timothy suggested crysanthmums... I bought them a cross.... a flower that has the shape of a sunflower and the colour of a crysanthmum. They are free to make crysanthumum tea or daisy tea with it. Haha...

Saw Zhanghan.... has not changed since I last saw him. He was like 'wow.... Michelle managed to learn the erhu in such a short time." Was suitably impressed.

I felt really sad.... I guess... after this concert... its so final.... its like the end.... the closure of a chapter of my life. But with the closure of this chapter (not like it ever begin since I quited CO... ahah...) it opens up a new chapter. I have came to respect CO a lot.... Made up my mind.... gonna learn how to play the dizi after A levels. I think its the most beautiful Chinese instrument.

Life is really like a box of chocolates. U never know what u r going to get as quoted from forest gump show. I really wonder... who would I be if I nv took MEP in secondary school. I would not have learnt the violin... would not have joined chamber and then later under unforseen circumstances join CO and learn how to play at least a scale on the double bass. Who would I be? I doubt I would have join sports... I would most probably be a person joining computer club or whatever club and never know the joy of playing in a ensemble.

Sometimes... life is so amazing. What seems like the worst thing turns out to be the best thing that happen in your life. Like my case... taking MEP (though I still really hate the theory part of it) I guess... there is a silver lining to every cloud and it was really a great blessing in disguise. Without MEP... I wouldn't have walked the path I have and wouldn't be the person I am today.