I am feeling a mixture of feelings today...

I am always happy at chamber... playing with all the other people.... but sometimes... just sometimes... I wonder whether if I knew the state that chamber would end up in... would I have joined chamber in 2004? O levels results are out... sigh... don't really know how they all do... but why is it that those who can actually play can not really stay in Tjc? Sigh.... I feel so sad over chamber sometimes that my heart is aching... sometimes... I just want to give up... It does not help that the teacher is so unsupportive.. She hardly does anything... SYF, concert... nothing has been done and its already March. Sigh.... Worst thing yet... I don't really know whether they all can stay cos they like get 7 or 8 with bonus points.... I will be very happy when June comes... then this very heavy burden of michelle and me will be lifted off...

But thanks Michelle for being there with me... for moaning bout chamber even though u don't like to moan about it. We just have to remind ourself... there is a light at the end of every channel.... cannot give up now... not even if there is enoough people to join syf. Perhaps... there is a blessing in disguise for all this.

Sigh... chamber... I don't know whether to love or to hate it... to cry or laugh over it.