Sigh... so sad... the newspapers are not coming todday cos its Chinese New Year. I really need to read something while eating... so here I am... eating and randomly surfing the net.

Chinese new year... my parents times 2 the amount they usually give me. I wonder why... haha... maybe they just felt like it. I suppose I should feel happy... But after feeling the initial tinge of surprise... I felt nothing. I wonder why... shouldm't I feel estatic that i got more money now? Dunno... Maybe I have outgrown the stage of hongbaos.

I wonder bout a lot of stupid stuff.. Another thing I wonder why about is TKGS. I wonder why I don't feel anything towards TKGS anymore... Perhaps because there is nothing left for me to remember there. But I feel thats its stange... cos I still remember my primary school and I know I will remember Tjc... well... there is one thing left for me to remember... my chem teacher. I WILL go back for the first time in 2 years to see her on Teacher's day. I suppose another 2 people there left for me to remember is obviously my mother and sister. Muahaha (like duh?) I am contemplating making my mother a card... then give it to her on Teacher's day... cos though she is my mother... she has taught me a lot of things too... about life experiences... about chemistry... about maths... about how to be a good person (now... that one i have doubts whether it actually worked). I guess my parents are these kind of people... people who love me but simply who have not yet learned how to express their feelings or show their feelings and feel that there is no need to as long as u do deep in your heart. So... sometimes... I feel that they don't love me. Until something happen to me (which is quite a lot of times) ... then I feel sad... then only their actions make me remember how much they love me. Hmmm... so I think I will give her something... but I wonder what... haha... she usually cannot be bothered about the teacher day present... I am more bothered by them...